Writers'Block

Went from wishing and hoping
To remembering and reminiscing
Going from lifting and shifting
To walking and jogging

Starting from A quickly moving to B
Consistantly going up , never looking down
Coming to my first rut, and watching myself fall
Trying to stop, trying to land on my feet, before
I hit the ground...

Alone and Falling, Searching for the inner strength
Seconds to minutes, minutes to hours, hours to days
Know that the pain is near, I soon to begin to fear
That all I feared is nearly here...

Close my eyes
Take my breath
Screams fill the room...
I have reached rock bottom

Silence, Darkness, Emptiness
Light slowly starts to shine through
Confused and Dazed
I begin to gaze,at my current surroundings...

An what I see is horrifying to thee
No where else to look, but at this image, this picture
of this dis-figuration...

Unclear of what is currently presented to me
I move towards to identify this imagery
The close I get, The more I start to resent what I see

Soon realizing this scarred disfigured image is me..
Broken down on my knees...
I then fall into a deep sleep

Memories begin to speak
My concouis telling me to wake up,
I didnt come this far to give up

Opening my eyes learning that this is me
I am strong like no other
My hear is that of a champion
My persistence and determination
Makes me an individual

These scars of those of a warriors
My voice and words are spoken with wisdom
I was born a fighter, A true outlaw
I break rules and make my own way
I fall and get right up

Life is hard
But life is difficult for me
Each day has some type of adversity for me..

After being stuck in this rut
For so long...
There is nothing else to do, but stand tall..

As I move up
I grow to accept my circumstances
Knowing that my inner happiness
Falls solely on my shoulders

No longer can my disbelief hold me down
Gravity can't even stop me
This is me moving..
This is my movement to acceptance

Categorize this how you wish , a letter , a poem , a story! to me its my thoughts on lines.

..

To my last day ,
Let me have left behind , a handful of tears for those who will miss my presence , a handful of questions but a understanding for my legacy, my purpose of being , an my reasoning for my struggles. See
I have not lived for myself , I have lived because I was strong and ready to endure life's curve balls. I wanna leave behind something not necessarily an object but an understanding. Whether it be today or tomorrow I just want you all to remember my legacy . . . I want you to keep this in your mind and your hearts where ever you go . An that is..


You will only have one chance to live a beautiful eventful life. So never second guess yourself! , love those close to you endlessly and limitless, Love those you hate , Don't stress about what you cant change today. Laugh uncontrollably and obnoxiously. Scream relentlessly! for what you believe in. Be who you want to be and always stay your one an only role model. Cherish every breath you take. Smoke the pain to a place higher than me. Educate yourself , Rarely sleep there will be time to that when your dead. Judge not on a persons actions , but his reasoning to do so. Play in the rain. Stay forever young but savor when your old. Love till it hurts , Love and live for another! , discriminate chronic liars , Live YOUR life , make mistakes , and lastly Drink uncontrollably . Regret it in the morning ...


ALWAYS REMEMBER THIS! THIS IS ME! THIS IS MY BELIEFS! THIS IS WHAT IVE LIVED TO LEAVE! .